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So last night I watched American Gangster with my bestfriend and my current crush. It had taken us almost the whole week to watch this movie since we always watch it at night, and he always falls alseep! I don't want to sound like a creep or anything, but he looks so cute when he sleeps. Lol. So, the movie ended and I was still awake, but like I said, he was sleeping. And I usually wake him up before i leave, but i decided to shut off all the lights and the tv, lock the door and leave him peacefully sleeping. Soon, we are going to go to wal mart, and he is going to get his mother a gift for mothers day, which is tomorrow.

I wish I could buy my mom something pretty, but it's hard when you don't have a job. Ugg, my mom really deserves more. I could sell drugs, but that's illeagal. Don't want to get into trouble.

I have sold before, aderal and ritalin. But that's it, and I won't do it again. I stopped with the pills, i still smoke everyonce and a while. Pots not bad if you're smart about it. But it's hard latly to find it, since a lot of ppl are begining to be wired in this town. See, I usually find it for people, since my friends know where to get it, and then when I find it, the person who i find it for smokes me up. So, thats how i get it. :)

Today, I am also going with my mentor. See, when i was younger, about 10, my mother thought that I needed another parent figure like. She felt that she couldnt be there as much as I needed. So, we went throught this program, and I was matched up with one of my current bestfriends. Shes awesome. Im not sure what we are doing today, but Im sure it will be fun. I got to email her to tell her to come later, since im going to wal mart.

O, back to this dude. See, hes really cool. And i really want to date him. I think it would be so prefect. But he just broke up with his gf, they were only dating a couple weeks. And i just broke up with my bf of 6months. So, im not going to ask him yet. But i think it would be sooo awesome. He knows that I like him, so Im not sure if he likes me back. If he did, wouldnt he ask me out? Or is it because we just broke up with out last mates? idk. I guess I just have to wait it out.

Heres something else.

I dont know shit about pregnacy. But the last time I had my pd, it was really heavy, and it ususlly lasts more then a week. But this time, me and my ex(while we were dating) had unprotected sex while I was still on my pd. The next day, it had all of a suddon just stopped. And it was really heavy. So he put it in my head that its because im prego, but im not sure. I don't think he knows much about that stuff either, so I guess I just have to wait. But thats my current longtimeish worrie.

Hmm....Im not sure if there is anything else to say....

I guess maybe I have a boring life. Lol.